Friday, September 12, 2008

Exams... :(:(

Boooo hooooooooooooooo :(:(
exams again....
its someting which i have started to hate the most, of late... not that i used to like exams b4.. but this examophobia(probably there is a correct term for it!!! i dono) has incresed many folds after coming to BIM... more so, cos of the 3 hrs of torture which i have to endure everyday.... :(:(
exams r really reallly irritating... really wonder how ppl can glue their asses to the chair for 3 full hours to answer a paper which doesnt make any sense to ME...... :(:(:(  cheers to everyone whos able to sit thru the exams.... i really admire all of them with all my heart..... 

invariably during any exam i start dozing off after 40 mins or so.... that too for dumb papers liek strat man, (apologies to ppl who like strategic management) which is all theory, theory and more theory..... dono how... the very moment i start answering the paper i start feeling sleepy.. till the previous moment i am all fresh like a morning flower.... but just one look at those boring questions and the thought of writing 3 pages for each question after question makes me doze off... like i ve not slept for past 4 days... :(:(

at times i feel very bad... and angry with myself for being so stupid to sleep thru the exams.... but to be honest i really am not able to control my sleep....
many times i ve even thought of walking away half way thru the exams without being able to control my sleep... but.... :(:( damn me.. dont have the guts to do that too...:(

heights of it all.....for my retailing mid terms as usually i started going in to a deep trance( the paper was interesting though)and came back to my normal self only when half hour was left for the exam to get over....  like a dumb ass i left out one entire objective section... not cos i didnt have time.. but cos i totally FORGOT abt that section . :(:(:(... all that was on my mind at that time was to run out of the exam hall to the comforts of my warm and cozy hostel bed......

the worst part of it all....i had marked the answers in my question paper thinking i cld copy it on to the answer sheet towards the end....
what cld i call this.... :(:(:( felt like slapping my own face in front of the mirror... grrrrrrrrrrr.... 
many of my friends cldnt stop laughing when i told them abt this.. every one had a good laff looking at my foolishness.. laziness wht ever they clad call it.... thats a diff story all together....:(:(anyways... its over now.. exams are not gonna stop bugging me and am not gonna stop sleeping either....hehehe...
but  in one corner of my heart i secretly enjoy sleeping during exams... thats a divine feeling which many ppl are not blessed to experience... haha... gives me a sense of achievement... atleast this way am happy of achieving something that not many cld :):)
b4 anyone comes in search of me (to hit me of course!!! ) i sign offf........byyyyyyyyyyyyeeeee:)see u soon with another big mokkai :)

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Cool Trichy

Trichy is sooo cool these days... [meant the weather :) ]
pheww.... finally a big bye to hot and sultry evenings... :)
every day it rains... :) haha... chennai vaasis.... dont feel too jealous... 
am enjoying the weather !!!!!!
no mokkai posts this time... :)
byeeeeeeeee

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

fav teachers ever

:) after getting a wonnnnnnnnderful response [:(] for my previous blog and fearing writing on the same lines or trying to probe deep inside my heart to find answers for such dangerous questions would make me sound like a misandrist by birth, i choose to write on something nice and lite... after all am not a serious kind as i sound.... :):):):)
This being one of my first few blogs , dont prefer writing abt my daily activities... i woke up, i ate, i slept..... lemme write something interesting atleast for few more days till i run out of nice topics.... :) how abt my fav teachers... have always wanted to tell to ppl abt my teachers who r still my fav role models and inspirations..... but dono y... hehe ... whenever I attempted it…i ended up boring ppl to death.. hehehe....
but no ones here to stop me.... hahaha.... (feel so powerful )

There have been few teachers in my life who made me what i am today.... am sure each one of us must have a list of fav teachers.... :) isnt it a nice feeling to look back on those sweet childhood days when certain ppl create a strong impression on u which lasts thru out our life....??? leave alone our teachers (with due respect to them)....certain small incidents, people whom u met on the road, train, icecream shop on a rainy evening.. for some unknown reason they stay in ur heart for a long time... very surprisingly u remember some faces u ve seen when u were in class 1 or 2 even after u grow up and go to work.. these ppl mite not have not done anything big to grab ur attention... but.... there wld ve been something very nice, sweet, scary abt them that we remember them for loooooong.... even the most unlikely people like the guy who sells balloons, the old man selling fruits on the road, the kinter garden care taker.... I still remember all of them even though its been ages( even in the literal sense) since i met them.... may be thats the power of a childs mind... its so fresh that any small thing which by some way or the other goes in to a childs heart stays there for ever ...... .. oh god.. wht was i talking abt.. ya my teachers.... :)
i have a list of fav teachers who inspired me and motivated me.... their presence in my life was so strong.... so strong that my life turned upside down when one of my teachers left the school on a long maternity leave.. surprised??? read on....

Mrs. Margret- My most fav teacher ever... the lady who taught me how to write... my grand ma used to say that when i was in kinter garden and was taught how to write alphabets i cldnt write a single alphabet propoerly... this is not just for 2 or 3 months when every child has difficulty writing.... for 1 full year .. when my classmates would write small words legibly i wld be still fumbling in class not even knowing how to write alphabets.... my mom tried to teach me and home.. no use.. dad did.... no use... everyone at home tried to teach me to hold the pencil and write.. but in vain :(:(:( prob i had small levels of dyslexia.. hehehe.. who knows...
and then my granny did a wise thing she had Mrs .Margret come down to my home every evening to teach me how to write alphabets.....
and to everyones wonder... after one week i started writing so well.... though it mite not sound very surprising now (it didnt even for me, when my granny told this).. i could well imagine the look of relief my parents wld ve had to see me writing.. my mom shd ve had nite mares of her only daughter being seriously affected by some virus which doesnt let her write , learn or speak.. she shd ve thought that i wld become one useless school drop out after kinter garden.. heheheheeee... sounds like a nice story for a tamil movie na... a small kid.. school drop out in lkg... ppl concluding that its life is doomed forever cos it cldnt even write/read.... but rising to be the ruler of a nation... :):) wow.. what a (dumb) story....!!!
ok.. coming back to wht i was telling.....Mrs.Margret.... the lady whom i still love with all my heart and look up with so much regard... not just cos she held my hands and taught me how to write.. but for taking special care of me(i came to know from her that i was her most fav students too :):) ) and encouraging me...moulding me to what i am now... though there were many teachers after that thru out my high school...... no one cld take the place which Mrs.Margret had in my heart... am sure if she hadnt taken me to all those interschool singing and oratorical competitions i would not have had a wonderful and interesting school life.. it wld ve been a very normal and usual school life like any other child's....
i still remember those days(LKG) when i used to sit in the first row and look at her when she has masala vada and tea during short morning break.(as if i had not eaten anything for 2 or 3 days).. poor lady.... how awkward i must ve made her feel that she used to gimme half of the vada daily.... hehehe.... but surprisingly.... i used to be the envy of my classmates... few gals even came up to me and asked if Mrs.Margret is my relative cos she is giving me half of her vada ... (it used to be a big prestige issue at that age... hehehehe )...... i still go and meet her whenever i feel like...not for the vadas though.. hehehehee :)

next fav..... Mrs.Krishnaveni..
most inspiring teachers i have ever come across.. she was my biology teacher in 9th and 10th...
dono if its magic.... just listen to her class properly for 40 mins and surpringly enuf i wld be able to write about the topic just like it is in the book( which was required to get good marks in tamil nadu matriculation)...
One of the main reasons i had a very happy life during my 9th and 10th.. she made studying so easy for all of us.... :) may be cos of my liking for the teacher more than the subject itself, biology was one paper where i scored 100 in my class 10 board exams:):) i owe it totally to Mrs.Krishnaveni....
assuming she wld be there for my class 12 also, i took biology as my major subject in my higher secondary.. the worst mistake i ever did.... :( boooohoooo...... oooohoooooo :(
She went away on a long maternity leave and my life became doomed for the next 2 yrs.. from my most favourite subject to the one i hated so much.... biology became so awful and difficult.. i used to hate the botany and zoo teachers who replaced her.. somehow i struggled so hard to score soemting close to decent... since i didnt like biology which is the main subject where we need to score good marks,to get in to MBBS... i started hating MBBS too..... 2yrs of higher secondary life was a real nite mare for me.... :(:(:(:( somehow i finished off my 12th.. and ended up as an engg student at MIT.. who knows!!! if only my mam had taught bio, i wld be Dr. Mandhagini now.... :):) she is one person, I believe, whose absence at the most important phase of my life, turned it upside down and made me take a very different path from the one I had actually wanted to….though I don’t have regrets now.. but still.. )

After my schooling there were many teachers…. Prof Gajju(MIT Prof)… Prof.Choods….. and Prof. Sreeraman(BIM).. each one of them had inspired if not to reach great heights…. Atleast to take special interest in the subjects which they taught… I think it’s a great deal for any teacher to make the student take interest in the subject and read… after all a person's interest in the subject is not just cos of the subject but mainly cos of the teacher… I strongly believe in this JJ

Shhhhhhooooopaaa… fingers are paining.. not used to writing so much.. last time I remember typing so much at one go was for my interns project report…..
Before my lappie dies out of battery…. I ll post this blog…
Tata…. Mokkai will continue later…..

Monday, August 18, 2008

First blog

Guess am a lil late to join the "My first blog" bandwagon.... :):) have always wanted to blog.. but for some reason, the most important one being my laziness, it never happened....the very thought of opening my lappie... connecting to the net... creating a profile in blogger।com .... adding my picture..(not to mention the number of times i changed it to find the rite one, where i look atleast a lil decent:))....writing abt myself... Phewwwwww!!!! a long process which isnt very attractive enuf to get a lazy being to write abt anything and everything... or atleast it wasnt for me...
The reason i started blogging is not for publicity or not just to do something which is accepted to be the "in thing".... wht i write here is gonna be about wht i truely believe in... a reflection of my mind, my heart....... my version of the world, my life and philosphy(rather my understnading of it:)...
what i write reflects wht i am.. and i dont care if it gives a bad picture abt me :):) after all this is my virtual space... where i can pen down my thoughts , emotions, feelings without putting on a fake "I am a good girl" face.. and thebest thing ... no one to say.. "shut up.u dono wht and how to speak"... i offer my friends a peak in to my life thru this blog... to know things abt me which they normally wldnt.... hoping to have a pleasant blogging experience....
advance apologies ... at times the blog mite become a junk box filled to the brim with mokkais... :):) comments and counter mokkais are welcome :):)
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
mandy feels happy now:):)